Confession number 1,395: I want to be thin. I have spent my entire life believing that I was super fat and wishing that I was thin. I think I might have been thin at one point, when I was in junior high and I was running for track nearly every day. I was kind of thin then. But even then, I didn’t believe that I was thin.
I look at women that can seemingly eat whatever they want and remain their same skinny size 4 and I wonder how they do it. Were they just blessed with a wonderful metabolism? Was I cursed by my father’s mother’s mother’s genes? Can I get out of this trend without having to eat only salad for the rest of my life?
I’ve had many failed fake diet attempts. I don’t want to go on a real diet because with most of them, as soon as you stop the ‘dieting’ you gain all that weight back and then some. I have tried eating better and I’m good at eating fruits and vegetables. But somehow, I can’t resist a jelly-filled donut. It’s sad.
It’s really too bad, but I’m too much of a wuss to go to hcg injections. I know that it can be dangerous, but hcg injections are a proven weight loss method. Instant results!
Like I said, though, I’m too much of a wuss.